It makes me sad

To hear about all the things other kids Avery’s age are doing and get to do. I can’t help it, I’m human and I get sad. Yes I’m happy for your child!

But it hurts when I know my son will never be able to do those things. It’s not fair and I want to have a pity party for me but mostly for him. Yes I know he’s a great kid, and he has a good life, but some times I need to take a minute and just say I want those things for him.

I even want those things for me. I want to watch him do all the things he’s supposed to do. And yes I know it could be worse, so very much worse. But I don’t want to think about that right now.

I think I’m entitled to say some days it sucks. I love my son I just want it all for him.

The ARD

It was a good one! We are starting Avery’s transition planning. I had to fill out questionnaires about his plans after high school. Wow I can’t believe we are thinking about that. It seems like he just started school.

He’s had a great year and learned so much. He has progressed as much this year on his reading as he has for the past 8 years combined. His teacher is amazing and she uses things they like. They do daily current events off the internet. It’s one of Avery’s favorite things. He used to be really slow and not finish his work but when he missed getting to read and talk about his current event he got his work done. Of course I heard about LSD at dinner last night. lol Evidently current events have a lot of crime.

He’ll be in 11th grade next year so he will start his vocational training. One thing he has been looking forward to since we moved here two years ago is working at Walmart. The 11th and 12th graders get to work a couple hours a week at Walmart. He has been trying to get on that bus since 8th grade! lol

Avery has been talking about moving out. He wants to live in a group home. Mostly because he has a friend who lives in one. I am not too sure if he would want to if he didn’t live at the same house as his friend. I am so not ready to think about that yet. I can’t imagine a time when he doesn’t live at home. But I do want that for him, I want him to do all the things he wants to do.

Rafters

Framing is almost finished and only a couple of rafters to go!  We will move the a/c vents for the down stairs and run the ones for upstairs this weekend.  Then on to the electrical. 

Mike seeing how much room is left for the attic.

Standing in our closet looking into our bedroom.

Bedroom

Be a Cop

That’s what Avery tells me he wants to be when he grows up.  He wants to be a cop just like dad.  I wish he could, I wish he could be anything he wanted.

Zachery told him tonight he’d have to stay up for a whole day and he’d be really tired! lol  It’s funny what the boys think.  Avery just says he wants to be a cop like dad and work with him.  His other job choices are, he’d like to be in the Army or work at Best Buy or Brookshires. 

I never tell him he can’t be a cop or in the army.  I just can’t be the one who does that.  I just tell him I hope he can be whatever he wants.  Maybe I’m wrong.  I don’t know, but I just can’t be the one to destroy his dreams. I do encourage him to work at Brookshires or other places he could do well at. 

Tomorrow is his ARD and we will have to do transition planning and will work with the people who will do the job coaching.  I am going to ask that we start sooner for the job training.  He is ready and he wants a job so bad!  I am excited for this part of our lives.  I love watching my son grow up but I am a little sad that he can’t just be whatever he wants.  

Yogurt

Zachery wanted yogurt today at the grocery store.  I don’t usually buy it because of the sugar content.  He also wanted popsicles and I couldn’t find any that were sugar free.  So I told him he had to choose.  He explained that the popsicles were for after the yogurt was gone. So I bought both.

Tonight he wanted a treat and asked for a popsicle.  I reminded him about how they were for after the yogurt was gone but decided he could have whichever he wanted but only one thing and he couldn’t ask for more.  So he choose yogurt.  Evidently there was a plastic stick it the package so you could turn one into a popsicle.  And once he figured out he couldn’t use the stick on the one he had open he said he changed his mind he wanted a popsicle.

Ok I’m mean. lol  But no I’m sorry you picked yogurt and you opened it so you have to eat it.  I asked him what he was going to do with the yogurt and he said he thought I’d have it.  No I don’t like it. lol  So then he suggested Avery eat it.  I told him that Avery would have the same choice he had and that he would probably pick a popsicle.

So he decided to go ask him.  “Avery, would  you like a yogurt?”  “yes!”  “Or you could have a popsicle.”  Avery decided on the popsicle.  “Avery, it’s the neeeeew yogurt!”  “Oh cool I’ll have that!” Zachery got his popsicle. 

What a negotiator! 

Secret blog

I’m thinking of starting a secret blog.  One in which I say all the things I’m really thinking.